Ummmmmmmmm

I dont have to say anything much....I feel like I just have to give up then everything will getting better....6 years are enough right? RIght now I dont know what is going to happen in the next minute, hour, day, week, month, and year....I hate the way i felt right now...i'm tired

This year is the worth for me

I'm tired

If I can dispear from this world...I would feel better

I cant protended any more...I know I'm not happy

I hate hate hate this....why it has to happen to me?

How can i deal with this shit?

Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Can someone help me.......I'm feel like i'm dieing right now

I want to go to some where that i can be myself and not to protend to be someone else.....and not to worry what going to happen to me.

There is no door that I can open

I just want to be dispear in this world....I would feel better

                                             I hate my life..............

Break down for no reason

Today I dont know why, after I seen some pictures of someone else...see them smile and loving each other...and some kind of song...make me break down for no reason...I'm cry like baby...

I dont understand myself...what is wrong with me today, I'm so eomotional....

Somehow deep down in side me....wondering why i'm here? Did feel happy?

I felt so empty....I felt like a big hole in my heart....that never get refill.....I guess I dont relaize of my own feeling...I alway try to ignore them and keep smiling...and said to myself I am happy...no matter what...

But today it hit me.....Because I can't lie to myslef any more....I can lie to someone else...but how could you lie to yourself

After all these yearss......I felt so empty...It's my life?

It that have to be like this?

After 8 second pass...everything will be history...I hope this feeling can be history

.....

I'm Hungry

This morning my brother call me from the school to wake me up!!!! He called me around 11:35...Man!! I was having dream about something fun....but he wake me up...Anyway he called because HE SAID SOMEONE TRY TO BOMB OUR SCHOOL....Someone leave a bag around Noth Building...So the police have to get all of students out from the campus. So i'm jumb out from my bed and stright out to living room to see if something on T.V that talk about Bombing...But nothing on...mayb because our NEWS people in GR are slow...I think...But anyway my brother call me again...he said the police clearn everything...but he dont know for sure if the bomb or not, because the police didn't said anything  yet.

Anyway i'm very hungry right....and I want to talk about the food better than the bombing...Right now i'm think about Korean food....The reason why is I love Korean food because Korean food are very spicy...And I LOVE SPICY FOOD...I dont like food that taste like nothing....no taste....no color...Tooo boring.

My Favorite Korean Dish

Spicy Braised Chicken with Potatoes "Dakdoringtang"

Spicy Soft Tofu Stew "Soondooboo Chigae"

Beef and Vegetable Vermicelli Noodle "Japchae"

And my Favorite is "Kimchi" in Korean they have 8 different kind of kimchi....And I love All of them...right now I want some Kimchi...also u can eat Kimchi with other dish too...Ummm I want some

Baechu Kimchi (Whole Cabbage Kimchi)

Baek Kimchi (White Cabbage Kimchi)

Bossam Kimchi (Rolled Kimchi)

Chonggak Kimchi (Ponytail Kimchi)

Dong Chimi (Winter White Water Kimchi)

Ggakdugi (Chopped Radish Kimchi)

Nabak Kimchi (Red Water Kimchi)

Yeolmumul Kimchi (Summer Green Water Kimchi)

Korean people can't live a day with out Kimchi...sound crazy but True..Kimchi is an absolute necessity in every Korean meal..... t is a kind of food that combines the savor, nutrients and preservability in one environmentally sound food, which Koreans are proud of........It is the food of foods in Korean culture.

 Have a beautiful weekend

Heloo Everyone I'm back again

I was so busy lately. School is started already and all of homework and tests just keep coming and coming. Today is snowing so hard and it very cold outside. But lucky I dont have school today =)

Today I got a chance to finish the movie that I started on last weekend. I'm cry like a baby , but I like it anyway.

Here are some pictures

   Something is wrong with my xanga, I can't update the pictures the way i wanted, so I'm gonna giving up doing this now.

I'm mad now....I can't update the picture the way i wanted

And by the way I'm sorry if you dont like the song I posted on my page, but I love it anyway

      Have a great day

What types of Love you are?

Today I'm kindna bored...So I think I want to write something today...For the last couple week...I spend my time watching a lot of movie and dramma....I tried to watch the funny one...So that I dont feel bad after I'm done watching them....But so far so good man!!!

Next week Friday 12 will be my first day of winter semester ...This is my second winter year in college now...yahoooo But my first day of the winter semester has to start with Math, and Speech ....I dont want to go to my Speech class at all....I just dont like to talk in front of people....They scare me off man...Anyway let get in to the point now...Last semester I took Interpersonal Communication Class...I found something that really interesting that I think you guys would like it.

There are 6 types of love

Eros- If you are this type of love, your love is drive you by passion, sexual, erotic love based on the pursuit of physical beauty and pleasure...When the passion dry out...your love is die.

Ludis-You are the type of person who like to have fun...love to hang out with your friends and love meet new people "Player"

Storge-This type of love is really solid love that found in friendships and family, based on trust and caring.

Mania- If this one is type of your love, you are in love because of the Money or other things that make you want to be with that person...Obsessive love driven by mutual needs...You alway think that you are need to be in relationship.

Pragma- Before you start any relationship...you are thinking a lot...Ex: personalities, backgrounds, likes, long distant or short distant relationship, it's going to work out....

Agape- This love is based on a spiritual ideal of love...It involves giving of yourself and expecting nothing in return...This kind of "pure" love...Like parents and childen.

For me- I know for sure i'm Pragma and Eros....Because I can only be in love with someone for short amout of time...Maybe like 1day - 3 months only....But I know that I will love my family and friends forever....This love will never die for sure....And I notice that i'm Pragman also...I tend to think too much when is come about a guy...I guess i'm too picky

So What about you?

 HAve a great day guysss